Scheduling Conflict

Posted: February 7, 2012 by sneakerporndiaries in Uncategorized

I was going to make some crack about the song Time Is On My Side by the Rolling Stones, until I realized it is actually about a guy who is fairly convinced the girl who left him will crawl back to him (I call this “Man-Delusion”. Not much has changed in 200 years.). Now the song will be on continuous loop in your brain.

“It’s a small world after all…” 

Sorry.

My schedule as of late has proven to be a challenge. Actually, what has been the challenge is to get what I need to get done and get where I need to be by 7:00p.m. Like tonight, for instance. I didn’t get out of the gym until just before 7:00. By the time I got home and showered (before you ask: no, I will not shower at the gym) the clocked had ticked its way to 7:30. If I had gotten dressed and flown out the door, I would have arrived where I was supposed to be after 8:00. It ends at 9:00, I would have gotten home at 9:30. This entire thought produced a mild panic attack. Therefore, I put on my sleep shirt, a pair of shorts and washed my lunch dishes.

I think that would be my only complaint about going to the gym after work. I, in all honesty, cannot comfortably call it a complaint. For the moment, it’s the way things need to be. Mondays and Tuesdays seem to be the days where I feel pressed for time. And for those of you who know a little of what’s up on a personal level, I do not desire to feel pressed at all. For me it’s the same as being suffocated, as if the air has slowly been sucked out of the room.
Sleep has been difficult for the past couple of weeks, even with the Ambien. I’m waking up in the middle of the night (interrupted sleep), lately I’ve woken up practically daily around 4:00a.m. for some insane reason. The sleep problem has most likely added to the whole panic attack thing I mentioned earlier…which also might be an indicator I need my meds adjusted. I already have an appointment to meet with my doctor next Friday for a follow up to something else. We are going to have a chat!

On another note, I can’t believe next week will be nine months. I’ve lost 120 pounds thus far. I’m about half the person I was inch wise (a year ago I wore a 32 in pants). I own boxing gloves and bright green sneakers. I now wear a large t-shirt as compared to the 4X’s I wore last year at this time. I am about to do something daring to my hair (you’ll have to wait to see…if it comes out bad I’m not showing you). The driver’s seat in my vehicle is closer to the steering wheel than it’s ever been. I no longer eat ice cream (pick yourselves off the floor). I went from having to be put on high blood pressure medication to 110/60. How cool am I?

I still don’t recognize the woman in who looks back at me every day. I’ve been assured this will change eventually. In the meantime I’m just taking things day by day.

Oh, apparently I did have an Ambien moment. I woke up this morning to find half a tiny bottle of Diet Pepsi on my nightstand next to a cheese stick wrapper.

I remember nothing.

Toodles.

Comments
  1. Carol Wells says:

    WOW!!!Traci you look amazing, keep up the good work. Have you tried drinking Sweet Dreams, or Cozy Chamomile Tea by Bigelow. They are Caffeine Free and Gluten Free might help the sleep problem. I will keep you in my prayers. Love Carol

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